It's been one year...

Since I was put on bedrest. I had spent the week before up in Rhinelander. My sister had just given birth to Ashlynn. I was feeling great, toting Adrian back and forth and enjoying my time with the little man and the new Ashlynn.
On my drive back I was feeling tired and had some pressure. I just figured I had done too much and would rest. I went to my appointment and asked to have my cervix checked. Later that night I got a call to go into Labor and Delivery because I was shortened and funneling.

It was so scary, thinking I might lose my babies. Brian was freaked out but acting strong. The next morning the Periantologist came in and checked me. She and my OB agreed to put me on bedrest. I am such a busy body- this was a death sentence to me!

We drove home and I felt doomed. Brian quickly situated the living room to my liking, brought me food and water and told me not to move. He then went back to work. I had never felt more alone in my life! I was getting really down on myself. A major turning point for me was to paste ultrasound pictures of the boys up on the wall next to me. Then whenever I was feeling angry I would look at them and remember why I had to do this.

My bedrest survival kit included these items:

laptop computer (bedrest message board)
Wii (donkey kong)
Word searches
Netflix (mad men and big love)
Cadburry cream eggs
Handheld shaver
Nail file
Hair brush
Face wipes
Body pillows
Nice lotions
Lip gloss
cell phone (lots of calls to mom)
Notecards (to write thank-yous)

I know look back on bedrest fondly, it was just me and these little men. All my focus was on them and Don Draper. Although I was pent up with so much anxiety I feel like at the same time I had never been more at peace, I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing.

Whoops!

I'm sorry - I suck.
So yes, somethings do get easier but other things get harder, way harder.
The boys are mobile now- which is exhausting! Downright tiring. They also are no longer in their infant seats... which meant new convertible car seats and a double stroller. It is such a pain in the rear to get them in and out of the car and into the stroller. Especially in all of this snow?!?!?

I loved the double snap n go- it was so easy to transport them. This new stroller is cool, I got the Baby Jogger City Micro. Don't tell my husband but I'm already eyeing up another one, it's $400 but has the footprint of a single stroller- which would be so nice.

We're working on baby proofing the house. We moved the coffee table out of the living room and bolted the TV to the wall. We have a lot more room and it's tons safer now. The boys are teething, they each have their two bottom teeth and Harry is working on his top two. Teething is the pits- it takes normally happy babies and turns them into monsters!

The cribs also had to be lowered as Harrison thought it was a good idea to stand up in his. Luckily Bubs saw it and quickly lowered the cribs!

Happy Halloween!

Bubba with his peapods!

Moi with "crazy pea" and "chill pea"

Best buddies! The guys only made it into trick or treating about an hour. After that they called it quits and took a nap! The holidays feel different when you have babies. I can't wait for them to be older and really get it- well I can wait but ya know!

The little men are almost 6 months now and I can hardly believe it! I just am floored by how much they've changed and grown! Aubrey is taking pictures for us on Saturday and I am so excited! I can't wait for her to capture this amazing stage with them. They are so happy and goofy now.
In post pregnancy related news, it turns out I have an umbilical hernia which sucks. So I have a follow up appointment for that bad boy. I am sincerely hoping that while they're in there they can do a little tug, nip, smooth procedure! ;)

Giggling twins!

I have a blog

It wasn't till a friend e-mailed me and said she had shared my blog that I remembered, "hey I have a blog.'
I also thought about how much I hated it when I would start following someones blog and then they would dissapear! I'm sorry- I didn't mean to, things have just been very busy. I also think the change of seasons is making me extra sleepy!

The above pic is of Harrison- smiling! Harrison was our eyebrow furrower, camera avoiding, frowning little man until recently. Now he has the most addicting smile and the best giggle. Last night we had the boys giggling at the same time- it was the most incredible parenting moment yet! They're doing good eating solids. We haven't really been pushing it too crazy, they've had rice cereal, carrots, peas, bananas, avocados, apples, sweet potatoes, pumpkin and squash. They've like pretty much all of it. The eat dinner every night and soon we'll add in another serving.
Brian and I were talking tonight about how much being a parent changes you. I never realized how much love I was capable of giving until now. We were talking about how if a child needed a home we wouldn't even blink. I now have such a stronger sense towards humanity- I always wanted us to be better but now I really want us to give a damn. I find myself shaking my head more often and being dissapointed with people more than usual. Priorities have shifted as well. I was at my favorite little clothing store and I didn't buy anything, I couldn't believe myself. Yet, I don't think twice about buying the cutest, the best, the funniest, etc for the boys! This doesn't mean I don't care about myself anymore- I just enjoy shopping for them more!

Fall has always been my favorite season and this year is all the better! It's a privilege to snuggle two warm little bodies in a cozy blanket with candles flickering and apple crisp smelling up the house! Good night- sleep tight!

So big!

Here's Gram and Gramps with all their grandkids! My brother, Brad has Hayley (pink dress) it was her birthday for this pic! Than my sister Stef has Adrian (green shirt) and Ashlynn (baby in green). Then Charlie and Anna, are my brother's girlfriend's kids that will be officially joining the family next summer! Then, of course, there's Harry and Ollie.

I've been thinking of some new blog posts, wondering if you would like to hear about cloth diapering twins? We're also going to be starting solids...soonish. I'm hoping to post recipes as I go. I'm also trying to build up the guts to post a before/after belly pic. I know I have a lot of soon to be MoM readers and I know I was really curious as to what my watermelon tummy would look like after the fact...
So what else is new? Well, I'm loving this stage with the boys- they smile, giggle and interact. I've been having an awesome time at work- feels so good to create again! It's such a fun place to be. I am also the new studio manager for my best friend Aubrey's studio. Aubrey and I have a blast together, and motivate one another really well. She's the kind of friend everyone should be so lucky to have.
I'm feeling fallish, getting the itch to pull out the boots, cozy sweaters, drink apple cider, light a nutmeg candle, pile pumpkins on the steps and bake yummies with caramel! ;)

The Present

{Oliver}
Our home is now crammed! With two adorable little bodies and all of their stuff!

{Brothers}

{Harrison}

Life is good and complete! We could not ask for anything more, except maybe a bigger home and a week-end away! Oooo and a maid!