Thoughts on Being a MoM

This will probably be the never ending post as I have many thoughts on being a mother of multiples....
There is not a day that goes by where I do not wonder why I was given twins but it doesn't really matter why all that matters now is that I do a damn good job raising them!
As I type this now Oliver is in the Bjorn stuck to me snoring (we went out to trim bushes while Harrison napped- Oliver isn't really into napping unless he's on you).

Topic #1
The first few weeks suck big time. I was incredibly sleep deprived and home sick. I wanted my mommy plain and simple. I didn't eat, sleep or breathe for awhile and then Bri went back to work and I was forced to step it up and amazingly enough it all worked out.

Topic #2
Breastfeeding also sucks. Ok not really- I'm sure it's lovely but for me it was the hardest thing in the world. We also had to formula feed due to weight gain issues, so an endless round of nurse, bottle feed, pump repeat nearly drove me over the edge. I packed up my pump, cried and then felt a lot better.

Topic #3
OCD beware! I like things the way I like them- a tidy house, a stocked fridge, groomed pets (groomed me) pretty gardens, etc. I do not like laundry baskets lying around, dog hair on furniture, a sink full of dishes and produce turning itself into mush. So I have become a bit of a hermit. I have not willingly invited one person over but am grateful to those who get me and forcefully showed up. Even if my bathrobe-clad spit up laden self said differently.

Topic #4
I love cloth diapering. We made the decision to cloth diaper the boys because of environmental and economic reasons. I did not foresee that it would also be therapeutic. I love stuffing the diapers and hanging them on the line. It has also become a shopping addiction!

Topic #5
Dads are sexy. There is nothing sexier than Bubba with his boys. I am insanely attracted to this man and did not know I would be even more so when he became a father. He reads "dwell" magazine to them, entertains them during tummy time, takes them for walks and most adorably wears Oliver in the Bjorn a lot.

Topic #6
I am not so sexy. My body is a train wreck. I have stretchmarks that look like I might as well be octomom. I also have this lovely hanging tummy skin. I am told this will get better but I am not holding my breath (actually I am because this friggin girdle is so tight!) Just kidding!!

Topic #7
I think these will be our only children. I wanted one and Brian wanted two so in a way we both got what we wanted. We don't feel we need anything more to be happy- we have two healthy, happy and studly little men. If more children do make their way into our lives it will most likely be through adoption (or failed birth control).

Topic #8
Bad mom or not I am looking forward to going back to work. I start July 7th and am really excited. I know it's going to be hard but I am only doing part time and am working at the most amazing place! The team at the flower shop is like a family and I can't wait to be part of it! I always thought I wanted to be a stay at home mom but I miss adults, creativity and making my own money. Maybe when the boys are in school I'll become a stay at home! Ha! Then I can spend all day baking treats for them and ironing Brian's clothes!

Well I have to save some material for next time. So if you're still reading this- thank you for sticking with me. Naps are becoming a little more regular so I will try my best to update more often.

Love, poo and slobber to you all!